belong is a song that i wrote in the winter that followed Barbara’s death, sometime in december. i used to write songs when i was a teenager but kind of put it on hold until recently. i just didn’t have anything to say, i guess.
i want to include it here because it seems fitting. it takes a lot of energy for me to sing it. i’ve been lucky to have done so on a few occasions. it never would have been born, the song, that is, had Barbara not died. so there’s that.
the lyrics are as follows:
”through the darkness I flew
through the red, black and blue
when an outline I see of a girl I once knew
with her gold, flaxen hair and her hazelnut stare
she invites me around for a visit up there
now I know I can’t stay that it’s just for this day
that we all must be where we belong …
in the darkness I find an eternal divide
where the strong kill the weak, where the world is unkind
and when most cannot care that this life is unfair
I still seek for the love that I know lies out there
so I charge for the light
it takes all of my might just to keep myself where I belong
when darkness surrounds you and grief tries to drown you
move through it, life will go on
in the darkness I see there’s a life-giving tree
that forever will bind me to you, you to me
now I know I must be strong for the road ahead’s still long
so ’till I see you again I’ll just leave you this song”
here’s the link to the song: